Ever have one of those moments when no matter how exhausted you are or how stressed out you are, your child does something that refreshes your soul?
I had that moment yesterday morning. Sunday night as we were all getting ready for bed, Emma tells me she wants to wake up at 5:30 in the morning and make all of us breakfast. I kind of laughed it off, said prayers with her and told her goodnight. I walked downstairs smiling because I know how much Emma loves her sleep so I knew she wouldn’t be waking up that early, especially to make breakfast for us. So I finished the laundry, read a little and finally around 10:30, I took myself to bed. It had seemed like I’d only been asleep a little while when I heard noises coming from our kitchen. I checked my phone on our bedside table and it was 5:17am. I laid in bed half awake trying to figure out what was going on in the kitchen and then I saw our door open slightly and Emma was standing in the doorway. She was asking if I could help her light the stove so she can heat up the pan. Then I realized she had woken up early in attempt to make us breakfast, I told her I would help her in another hour or so. I saw Emma’s shoulders slump and as she walked out of the room, she whispered “I just wanted to make you breakfast.” My heart nearly broke because I could tell Emma was holding back tears. I immediately got out of bed and told Emma I was sorry and I’ll heat up the pan for her. She already had out the pancake mix, the milk and even fresh blueberries. She told me to go back to sleep and she would wake me up when it was ready. But I was already awake and told her I was gonna stay awake and go for a run in a bit. As I was getting ready to go for a run, she was busy in the kitchen. She measured everything out, mixed it all in the bowl and poured each pancake into the pan by herself. She made blueberry pancakes for me, her dad, her brother, her grandma and herself. She is 10 years old and she set her alarm to wake up by 5:30 to make everyone breakfast. It was funny because after I ate my delicious pancakes she showed me to the trashcan, there were about 8 pancakes that didn’t make the cut. They were burnt or broken in half from sticking to the pan. I checked the pancake mix and there was maybe a spoonful of mix left, she had used the whole box making everyone pancakes. Those were the best pancakes ever. Why? Because my daughter made them. It made mine and Anthony's day. It was actually the best way our day could have started. To make things even better, Emma packed my lunch for me. She made me a turkey sandwich and on the foil, she wrote in permanent marker; I hope you like your lunch, I love you Mommy. I couldn’t be more proud of my baby girl.
Aside from the delicious food she made me, Emma taught me a lesson. She made plans to make us breakfast, plans I was not aware of. Her plans meant she was going to have to do something she never did, wake up early on her summer vacation. But though they were her plans, she needed my help. When I realized what her plans were, my first instinct was to ignore her and get to it later. I was too tired to get up and help her like she needed, I was more worried about what I wanted then what Emma wanted. How many times does God have a plan for us but we ignore it because we are wrapped up in our own wants. Yes, he has a plan for all of us but sometimes there are things we need to do in order to follow through with his plan. Sometimes we have to fall apart or break when we do what the plan requires from us. We have to remember that no matter how many times the plan isn’t what we expected, it’s part of us learning how to handle tough situations. We have to understand that the ultimate plan He has for us will be incredible and worth every struggle.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11